Archive | January, 2012

Every Life has a story…

31 Jan
Having been on our own amazing life-journey the past 9 months, I have started listening intently to what other people share about their life. And what I have realised, is that every person has a story. Every person has a story with a loud voice. Every person has a story that impacts others in a profound way. The impact of that story lies both in the journey itself as well as in the way it is handled.
Sometimes our stories are written in bright colours, full of glitter, stories filled with adventure and fun. Sometimes our stories are written in the softest pastel colours, colours which represent tenderness and gentleness. And sometimes our stories are written in shades of black and grey, hard colours, but immensely powerful colours.
I often look back at our journey, a journey we would never have envisaged for ourselves. As the pages and colors unfold, I wonder… I wonder if we have walked this journey  in the best possible way we could have. I wonder if we have done enough, and if we have lived from a place of rest. I wonder if we have read all the pages, or maybe missed some of the important chapters of the story. I have realised that the secret of walking your journey well, lies in feeling so safe in Papa’s arms that it doesn’t really matter if the picture you had in mind looks nothing like the reality. The secret lies in embracing every word of every page of your story.
I say again, each life has a journey and each journey has a story. And each story is significant and carries impact. Never underestimate the power that lies within your story. You might feel as if your journey has been insignificant or small. Or you might feel like you have failed due to the manner in which you have walked your journey.  Therefore, you might choose to keep your story to yourself. Don’t do that. Tell your story, walk your journey with your head held high. And know that  your voice is important. And next time you sit with someone, take time to listen to their story…
My grandparents have 91 years of stories behind them. And 65 years of married life. Rich and impactful!
Even though our girls are only starting out their life journey, they already have profound stories to share.

Being a victorious mom…

26 Jan

I proudly announced to my husband this morning that I am ‘finally’ feeling as if I’m starting the year from a place of victory! My girls’ school uniforms and stationary have all been marked (in time for school), my diary is up to date and I’ve got an exciting vision for my business.

I used to be a person who functioned with lists. My life was carefully plotted out on either the pages of my diary, or on to-do stick it notes, neatly ticked off as I accomplished each item. I was even the one who reminded people of their anniversaries before they remembered….!  It sounds a bit painful, I know. Then we had our first daughter Kayla, and apart from the pajama drills and bloodshot eyes due to a lack of sleep, I was back into my routine quick enough. Even with the arrival of Nika, it felt like I sprung back to my real, organised life quite quickly! With two kids, ages well spaced, life was different and fun, but still manageable through little lists. And then Lana arrived, and with her came the wonderful, colourful, crazy lifestyle of a home with three girls. It brought orderly chaos into my life, which I have not yet restored, until maybe this year (which is not even one month old yet). For the past three years, since Lana’s birth,  I felt like I never knew what was going on, until it was maybe too late. I have not remembered birthdays (although it is in my diary) and if I remember in time, then the card or gift may not be ready. My phone is always on silent and I often have 15 voice messages on my phone before I get a moment to listen to it. That’s why this morning’s realization was so profound for me.

But soon after my feeling of elation at being in charge again, I wondered for a moment if it really is that important. After 3 years of living in a place of not being on top of it all, it might not be my goal anymore. Or might not even fit our current lifestyle anymore. And then the question: “What does it really mean to live from a victorious place as a mom (and wife)?”

Isn’t it funny how we can feel so self-confident in most aspects of our lives, but when it comes to being a mom it’s so easy to second-guess ourselves all the time. And so my thought pattern is: Is it okay to not always be in charge of to-do’s and meetings and times? Is it good enough to be uninvolved enough at school to not be a paranoid mom, but just involved enough to at least know when there is a school outing? Is it okay for our girls to maybe not attend all the school parties due to the invites getting lost (in the pile of unfilled papers on our dining room table), but rather for them to feel respected when they are with me? My conclusion: Even though our ‘baby’ is now 3 and I don’t have an excuse to be a bit scatter-brained anymore, my victory as a mom lies in the fact that I try and teach our girls that they are important, that they have value, that they are loved to bits and respected and that I truly enjoy them! I love their personalities, I love their uniqueness and I want them to know that they will be safe with us, always, regardless of what they do or don’t do. I want them to know that they are powerful and have influence and that I often learn huge life-lessons from them! Yes that’s it! That’s the victory! Teaching our kids to carry life lightly and embrace every moment. Teaching them to build memories, even if it’s just painting a picture or chasing the ice-cream van for a treat. Teaching our kids to take themselves lightly but feel worthy, to have fun and laugh together. Teaching them that they can do anything and encourage them to fly, and yet, let them enjoy their failures. Teaching them that relationships are way more important than anything else. I now have a heart connection with each one of these three girls. I do not just function with them.

So, I might not ever be a list-person again. Yay, what a relief. But I do live a victorious life! May your days be filled with victory and lots of amazing moments.

Christmas all year round

22 Jan

It’s new year! What an amazing feeling. We often say that things dont just change overnight because of a date on a calender that ticks over. It’s not as if we go to sleep on the 31st of December and wake up the next morning and everything is suddenly different. This might be true, but what is also true is that there is a sense of freshness about the start of a new year. There is a sense of mystery of what the year will hold, a sense of excitement of discovering all the treasures hidden in the 365 days ahead. And then the latent hope and expectation of the possibility of dreams coming true.

So why then, in the midst of all this newness, write about Christmas? You might think that writing about Christmas is a bit odd at this moment. I’m either too late or wayyyy early with jotting down what I’m carrying in my heart. But I’m not. Apart from Springday (which is my birthday), Christmas is my favourite season, my favourite time of the year! In our home Christmas is a time we enjoy! It is a time we spend with family and friends. It is time we celebrate and craft. Its a time we feast and bake, we prepare and decorate. Most of all  we have an overwhelming knowing that this day has changed the course of our lives forever.

Recently, a few of my friends and I got together for a tea-party-journal-making-morning over the weekend. As we were crafting we shared our feelings, visions and dreams about the year ahead. For me – it was that 2012 will be like Christmas all year round. So the thought of having these above mentioned experiences as part of our every day this year is heart-warming.

So here’s to a merry Christmas to all of you – throughout this year. May this year be filled with many special moments of baking cookies with your little ones. May there be more than enough times to sit on the carpet and draw your favorite pictures or laugh with each other. May there be times when you can steal a moment and sit down with a cup of tea and look at the beautiful raindrops falling outside. May you have a feast in a small or big way every day!

My favorite people on our Christmas 2011 pic…

A special friend gave me these words to remind myself of what I’ve said…The words are from the Muppet Christmas Song:

It’s in the singing of a street corner choir
It’s going home and getting warm by the fire
It’s true
Wherever you find love
It feels like Christmas
A cup of kindness that we share with another
A sweet reunion with a friend or a brother
In all the places you find love
It feels like Christmas
It is the season of the heart
A special time of caring
The ways of love made clear
It is the season of the spirit
The message if we hear it
Is make it last all year
It’s in the giving of a gift to another
A pair of mittens that were made by your mother
It’s all the ways that we show love
That feel like Christmas

A part of childhood we’ll always remember
It is the summer of the soul in December
Yes, when you do your best for love
It feels like Christmas
It is the season of the heart
A special time of caring
The ways of love made clear
It is the season of the spirit
The message if we hear it
Is make it last all year
It’s true, wherever you find love
It feels like Christmas

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